NOW 2013, CHANGES

hey.. i havent post anything lately. i was completely forget about 'i-have-a-blog' LOL.

now i just kinda change. and maybe heres some message to the old naomi.

" dear past naomi

youve been through a lot , u cried, you fought.. you loved, im just gonna tell you that you still cry, and fight. maybe you can just forget about the love thing. Since ,,.. its not love afterall.., maybe were obsessed with Kkun, it just.. now everything has change. i let my bangs grow, just like you want it, and i continued our project! everything has become more clearer, and i begin to realize that im not really a HUMANIST, and maybe I dont consider myself as a human, so let me just live the life He gave me. I bet God was troubled which body should i enter, but He endep up chosing this 'Naomi.. i guaranteed theres always a purpose behind every action.. although maybe sometimes there are no reasons at all. anyway, just let it be. Let Kkun go, let your mind free,.. you stop cutting too.. its a really good thing you know? im glad for you,, and now youre fighting against the urge to cut or being a suicidal. Cause afterall i dont want to be the same as humans. Theyre filthy , but also precious.. i have to protect them, from what actually.. from themselves, for not being so human and being too over fleshed.

LOVE FUTURE


dont worry naomi, J. he will come for you no matter when. its not the time that im worry about, I'm really anxious about my mental state when i finally get to meet you . im really afraid of my human, i hope you can understand me someday .. or maybe heal me instead.. in the name of Love ! you make me choose between human and my clan. probably it will work, but i have no idea about whats going to happen next. Just a hunch, its gonna be a great day tomorrow." :)

Im also happy today theres a guy.. lets call him kiokun,, he said things like this " dont worry , be happy naomi.. everything is gonna be okay, its gonna be alright"

kiokun perhaps doesnt know that , even if its just words that just popped up in his head, i dont care.. but those words really affect me, it means so much to me, finally i feel like im touching the ground again after a long time being lost.

IN ALL OF THIS CONFUSION
im also confused about whos going to be my J?
KKUN?
AKUN?
DURARAKUN?
KIOKUN?
DIKKUN?
actually there are so many candidates so i cant say em all..
let me share pic , about how i look in this year 2013.


or maybe later,.. i really should go to sleep, tomorrow will be hell on heaven.